as I am...

coniekoons @ 2007-02-27T09:46:00

2007-02-26T23:56:27Z

I wasn't able to finish my workbook, but I'm totally at peace with the workload I did for the past 3 days. I never realized how mind boggling it would be to answer such easy questioins (i.e. what discrimination or prejudice do you have for someone your own age, same economic status, et.c) I am mentally drained, I didn't even want to role play this morning. Anyways, the work book was 98% complete, which I'm totally fine with that. The other assignments have been completed as well as the interview I did with a classmate, which has a higher grade percentage.

Last Friday, Rey's gig got cancelled, so we opted for a movie. We watched Ghost Rider. Yup, I fell asleep. hehehe... just not my thang. Fridays are usually my down days. However, last Friday I've been on the road trying to get errands done. That was real taxing on my energy. Also, even if I don't do much on that day, it seems my body feels the week's stress. I usually skip Rey's Friday gigs and sleep earlier than usual (sometimes at 7 p.m.!).

Rey was really nice to treat me for a pedicure. I regretted going to the one I went to (they don't do a thorough job and I wish my feet were soaked longer in the warm water), but the turn out was really nice. I appreciated Rey's accompaniment much more. He sat patiently as he watched me indulge in the warm water. Loved the short, blissful moment :)

As I get older, I'm discovering my womanhood. One of them is, I'm into necklaces. It's really liberating, in terms of self-expression. I feel the colorful accessories reflect my personality and at the same time, gives a trendy look. FUN, FUN, FUN!

I've an hour to read a chapter for my SW410 class. I hope you all enjoy the rest of the week.

Pace.

coniekoons @ 2006-12-28T03:20:00

2006-12-28T03:20:44Z

I was mentally prepared to rock n' roll lastnight, until INTAKE's try was canceled. According to the coordinator, there were more bands night and to add to that, we'd all be there all night. I have to admit though, there were a lot of talented bands. I'm kind of nervous for those guys, if not, more nervous. WAH! hehehe...

I plan on excercising tonight. I hope I'll really motivate myself.

I'm contimplating whether or not to quit work. I'll have five classes, practicum, plus work. It's a lot work time placed on my plate. My dad this morning was wondering why I was going to work. I had told him I'll stop working, but darn it, I have to think of my phone bill. I don't think I can afford it.

I'm so freaking lazy!

they just might...

2006-12-26T05:38:27Z

Hoobastank is coming to Guam next month, and they're looking for local bands to play for the opening. Last Friday, INTAKE, the band that Reynaldo and my cousin Rod's in, auditioned for this spot. They were quite impressed, or so I heard, but they lacked showmanship. However, they were again told to play on Wednesday night at CASA. The bigger goal is to of course get the spot, but they more wanted the professional experience and critisism. We'll see...

Work's been really slow this part of the year. Last week, I had a six day holiday :) and it was fabulous! My bosses decided, as a christmas bonus, all of us get a two day vication w/ pay, and the next week we all do skeleton crew. It's perfect... it gives us time to relax :)

I got my grades. And it's what I had expected. Actually, just for one of my classes... Sociology of Sex & Gender. I got a "C". I almost gave up, but on the due date of our term-paper, I decided it would be horrible if I gave up and flunk the class. I sat in the computer center from 10-3p.m. and formulated as much as I could. It was the worst paper I had written and it was half of what is expected, but I at least attempted and did it. It was very meaningful for me because I hoped this decision also reflects me as a person. Aside that, I got A's for the rest of my classes.

Lunch with the Rabara's went well. Initially, I was very much irritated. It was HOT and they only began cooking at 1 p.m., we arrived at 12:30. I had my neice and poor baby was starving. I was more upset at REynaldo for telling me to come over at 12, or even not telling me that they had not cooked or bbqed yet when I told him I was coming over. I came prepared, as in empty stomach. To put heat and hunger together????? Yes, I was really bitchy. My neice had a blast though and Rey-san's parents were enlightened by the cute voice and giggles... so that made up the irritation.

WOW... 2007???? I can't believe it! I'm really nervous because I anticipate to graduate in may puhon. What if I flunk a class or that I didn't fulfill all my requirements? That would totally screw things up, right? And plus, my class got cancelled again this fall intercession, which means I have to take 5 classes next sem. That would be a lot to deal with considering I still have to do my last semester of practicum and work.

One more hour, and we all get to go home... :)

It's such a pleasure to write in here... thanks for reading.

coniekoons @ 2006-09-30T02:09:00

2006-09-29T16:21:52Z

Maybe sleeping a little early was a bad idea? Since Thursday night, I've been having stomach aches. It's right where my stomach's at... the pain and it causes to only half sleep.

I feel so emotional right now. I wish Rey-san were here to give me a warm hug. Last night, I stopped over to use the restroom (because apparently, this stomach ache came with diahrea) and I needed to pick up my sister. I didn't want to go home to Yigo, then back to Tamuning. Anyways, he gave me a back massage, and after, he gave me a tight, long hug from behind. We usually give each other hugs the regular way, you know... when both your face face each other. Tonight, it felt different, not in a sexual arousal different, but just really different, I can't explain. It felt true consolation and care. I had to request for him to stay in that position for a couple of minutes. I loved it... and I want one right now :(

"I'm on my last song... I'll call you back!" hahaha... it's past 2 in the morning, and they're not done with their last set? Poor baby, he even works at 10.

I was looking over Rey-san's pictures, and by golly gesh... he and his brother Jojo look a like! I can't wait to meet him. I spoke with him the other day on the phone... and the conversation went undry. I had to stop myself though... hahaha... it was past 1 a.m. his time.

I think I'm getting a little sleepy. hm... I hope my stomach ache isn't going to keep me up. I think it's caused by stress. Shit, I just felt it squirt some gastric juices. It's pretty bad!

coniekoons @ 2006-09-23T10:30:00

2006-09-23T00:53:32Z

I'm rather depressed today. I'm really having a hard time budgeting for my car maintenence and my citizenship application. I don't get paid much, I can only afford either the car maintenence or the citizenship. *shakes head* Right now, my priority is to get my application process going, so my car has to wait a long while. Gawd, that makes my stomach churn. BLEH!

My boyfriend? He's the coolest. He's been really good in helping me pick out shoes and clothes :) Last night he helped me pick out these pair of heels from nine west and a shirt at ROSS, my all time favorite cheap store. hahaha...

Work's been working out. We had a going away party yesterday for Bryan. He is now going to be a full-time worker for TSA.

Last wednesday was my first time to sing in the band in two years. I sounded really horrible and I had a hard time singing "Bring me to Life". I'm doing a song tonight, we'll see if I can handle the crowd like before. The weather's been too humid and it's been rainy, so we'll see how my throat'll work.

coniekoons @ 2006-08-06T15:28:00

2006-08-06T05:37:07Z

I'm enjoying every second of my time at the moment. My family has been very dependent on me lately, that I had to be firm in saying "NO!" I've told them numerous times I had finals and needed to study, but it seemed unnoticed.

Tomorrow is my final exam for History. Let see... I've fixed my journals, which some thematic questions have not been answered. I'm missing a few articles, other than that... I think I'm good to go. I'm just not motivated. I've been studying for the past 4 hours and I'm needing to take a break. All I need is a C, and I'm okey.

My body hurts from last Friday's workout.

I wish Rey were here. I could use some massage and cuddling... I hope I see him tonight...

coniekoons @ 2006-07-05T22:48:00

2006-07-05T13:01:08Z

My sister's really weird! UGH! I call a friend to finalize things because we have a big event tomorrow. No answer. My friend calls back, which my she happens to answer, and gives me this look of.. "are you giving my numbers out?" HELLO! Who in this world doesn't have caller ID on their phone? DOIH! I mean, if you had an unknown number on your caller ID, wouldn't you want to call it back and ask who called? exactly!

Last Monday, Rey and I watched Devil Wears Prada. It was alright... and true. Wearing all those expensive things does not mean a bit when you're not happy with your life. But damn, I couldn't help but salivate over those awesome shoes! :P hahahaha.... and did you see those sophisticated, classy outfits? *phew*

Went to GPO today... and Ninewest is having some serious sale. *shakes head* somebody, pls... STOP ME!

coniekoons @ 2006-06-02T09:40:00

2006-06-01T23:46:08Z

"Have you ever seen yourself through the eyes of whom you've become?" - What the Bleep Do they Know?

coniekoons @ 2006-05-22T20:47:00

2006-05-22T11:06:18Z

*dances raggae* dude... I've been on this person's myspace for a while now bumming off and dancing to "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. I love the guitar on it! I'm thinking of learning it to do a rendition with Bai. I wonder how it'll sound... It's been a while since the two of us got together and jammed. We still have a vision of playing at a hotel lobby.

Bai = friend. I'm calling Rey-san Bai. I was at the hospital visiting my uncle and his wife calls him Bai. Somehow, after 17 years of hearing this, it caught me. I had to ask my dad what it meant and my dad says its slang for friend :) sweet! I feel it's the perfect word for where we're at at this moment of our relationship.

So it's definite that I'm taking case management for summer. This means I have to take another loan for it. I can't afford it, yet alone ask my parents for money. It's what gets students moving... I think.

Gawd, this song's so cool! hehehe...

*sways head to the beat of music*

I worked from 8-5 today. It was like... sooooooooooooo long! My BIG boss, who usually comes quarterly from WA went over the filing cabinet. There were so many files in the wrong folder. I take blame for it because I do the filing. Wops. I felt tension going on and she felt it. She told me that it was okey and that no one is perfect... "however, we need to get a filing system going." I felt we do, except sometimes, files get stuck together without even being noticed. Oh wells. Aside from that, I love her though. She's very good. She knows what she's doing, and where things go and belong (budget wise). She's kept me under MHAS for 5 yrs! Shit... that's long huh? The work-study director doesn't even ask where I want to go, they already know I'm staying in that office. It's wonderful how they've seen me mature through the years. It's really amazing!

I wanted to watch a movie tonight. I was too tired though... so I opted to go home instead. I'm glad I chose the latter, it feels good to eat as a family, which is rare in my family this day and age.

Imma check what Bai's doing. Shalom...

coniekoons @ 2006-05-13T14:04:00

2006-05-13T04:18:00Z

I think I'm pms-ing. dude I have slight cramps :(

The other day, rey-san and I had our excercise out doors - at the beach baby! it was soooooo beautiful. Homeboy's pretty ecstatic about the idea of running at the beach. The sunset's really beautiful and the sound of the waves on the shore is such a calming sound.

I've been quite productive today. Washed two loads of clothes and watching my nephew can be a handful. He's taking his afternoon nap at the moment, so I'm having a little self time :)

Watched Mission Impossible 3 the other day. Rey-san was so excited! I love watching him get all stoked up when we watch a movie that he's dying to see. We loved the movie from beginning to end. We wrapped the night up with some serious late night dinner. yummy!

I have two more things that I need to worry about regarding school... a final for adolescent psych and this organizational analysis for my sw302 class.

coniekoons @ 2006-02-02T21:54:00

2006-02-02T11:55:26Z

I'm debating which one to get...

A RAZR

or....

a motorola v635

They both are GSM.. and have good qualities. I can afford both.. which on looks better?

I'd really appreciate if you all give me feedback :)

coniekoons @ 2006-01-30T15:52:00

2006-01-30T06:18:10Z

Mondays are bluer than the rest of the weeks. I am so not in the mood to do things. I decided to update since there's nothing much to do in the office aside from answering the phone.

Last Friday, the office had it's monthly luncheon at Pietro's, a new authentic Italian restaurant located in Acanta Mall. It wasn't as tasty as I thought it would be. The inside is anything but Italian designed. And yes, it is authentic to chamorro/filipino/american taste buds; it lacks taste, according to the majority of the officemates.

Rey-san also took me out to dinner that night at Palace Hotel's Palm Garden. I'm quite tired of that place, to frankly tell you. It was alright though, since sashimi is growing on me. After dinner, we sat at the Palace lounge as we were serenaded. Then these cute Jap kids started dancing. Minutes later, came a crowd... next thing we know, we're clapping, swaying, and singing Happy Birthday tunes. Anyways, something hilarious happend. Rey-san decided to order a cup of ice-tea. Some lady brings it over... and he takes a sip at it. "Wow, their ice tea is one of the best!" I get excited and I take a sip expecting it to be a top notch... to my disappointment it tasted like Nestea mixed drink. I did that yuck, with the tongue and wince look. I didn't realize the lady was looking at me! I was so embrassed. Rey-san and I paused, and then let out a crack. It was too hilarious!

My Saturday was much more interesting. I actually made my daddy proud, as well as the rest of my family and Rey-san. I washed and cleaned my car!!!!!! Ain't that somethin'? hehehe........ Now, I am more appreciative of my car. It's really bad. I've had my car for alost a year now, and I found gum stuck on it's carpet and chocolate on the chair. My mom also spilled coffee on it leaving a black moldy spot. ew! I plan on having it serviced for an interior wash and clean :) At the moment, I'm needing to reset my Mant reqd. light.. this means I need my car check up again.

Which reminds me, I have a Dr.'s appt. tomorrow. I hope rey-san is able to accompany me because it would help to have support.

My family had a get together to watch a pay-per-view of Manny Paquiao's boxing on Saturday evening. I've never enjoyed watching boxing as much as I did that one. It was so intense... I felt I couldn't breathe! Hahaha... I cooked dinner and then my homeboy, rey-san, brought some ice-cream. Yummy! hehehe....

I actually was given the opportunity to sleep in on Sunday. Since the Dominican students sang for 8 a.m., I took advantage. I also was able to go to life teen mass, which I haven't done in a while. It felt really awkward though. And I felt anomosity surfacing, but I knew it was all because of my pride. Very unhealthy.

Hm... I feel my stomach aching... I wonder if the bathroom still has airfreshner?

coniekoons @ 2006-01-22T23:30:00

2006-01-22T13:57:46Z

"Don't call me, in the middle of the night
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it'll be the way it was before
Don't think that I care...
I'm not over you yet..
And I don't wanna be your friend"

Awesome! I'm listening to Nina at the moment. I am sooooo loving her album Nina Live! I watched her lastnight and Rey-san and I decided we'd give her an overall 9/10 :) That's a good rating. The concert, entitled A Beautiful Life, was making me sleep, however it was only because it was all ballad. I loved it. It's my type of thing... acoustic! Her boyfriend, Nyoy Volante, was much better! I am so happy I got tickets for her concert. Thanks to my rock star!

And Oh... Troy Montero? He's hot and all, but no one really paid much attention to him :)

I actually have room in my room now! How exciting. The computer has moved to the middle room. (now that our kitchen is somewhat fixed, all its belongings moved. There is a middle room where all CDs, books, and computer is stored. I'd like to call that room, an office wanna be :P).

Manny Pacyaw(?), a Filipino boxer, won Eric Morales, athree time world champion :) He makes all Filipinos proud!

Today... I learned how to swim officially! Gabrielle, a siminarian, who used to be a swimming instructor back in Valenzuela, guided me through the motions and all :) I tried it out.. and I didn't even realized the depth was past my height! I nearly freaked and had to remind myself to stay calm and swim as I was taught. YAY! I should swim more often because I get a full body work out! Loves it...

I am excited to pop into my car. My sissy got the Nina Cd, and a friend of mine just came back from the Phils. He bough me MYMP CD's. I am definitely excited to have it in my hands. I've got Nina downloaded on my ipod, and I can't wait to do the same for MYMP. I have every reason to use my ipod now.

*yawns* I have a lot of vocal learning to do.

P.S. We get a break this coming sunday for 8 a.m. mass. Dominican students will host the whole mass. Yay! I get to sleep in on Sunday. Turn off all phones please! hahaha...

Alrighty folks, I shall end it here. I've got a real cold room waiting for me and my Nina ipod downloads to help me hit the pillows.

THANK YOU LORD FOR EVERYTHING!

Five Years Ago...

2006-01-19T13:33:15Z

I got this from of the myspacers :)

5 YEARS AGO......

How old were you? 18

What school year were you in? Senior

Where did you go to school? Simon Sanchez High School

Where did you work? none

Where did you live? Yigo

Where did you hang out? Hung out at the Science Building... and Church :)

How was your hair style? Long, uncutt, wavy...

Did you wear braces?: nope

Did you wear glasses? yeah...

Who was your best friend? bonnie & zach

Who was your boyfriend? none

Who was your celebrity crush? none

Who was your regular-person crush? W.L.

How many piercings did you have? ears

How many tattoos did you have? none

What was your favorite band? No Doubt

What was your biggest fear? growing up

Had you driven yet? Nope!

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HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!
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How old are you?: 23

What school year are you in? Junior in Social Work Program, with Senior Credits :P

Where do you go to school? University of Guam

Where do you work now? Micronesian Health & Aging Studies (UoG)

Where do u live? Yigo, GU

Where do you hang out? Dude, I don't hang out.

How is your hair style? short, wavy...

Do you wear braces? nope

Do you wear glasses? contacts

Who is your best friend? Rey-san! He practically knows everything about me!

Who is your boyfriend? REy-Rey, the hott rockstar :P

Who is your celebrity crush? Brad Pitt

Who is your regular-person crush? ---

How many piercings do you have? 4, all on ears

How many tattoos do you have? none

Favorite band or singer? No Doubt :P

What is your biggest fear? Marrying and falling out of love :(

Have you driven yet? like... YEAH! :P

coniekoons @ 2006-01-13T09:44:00

2006-01-12T23:43:37Z

Got this one from one of my friends in here :

All-Around Smart

You are all-around smart. Essentially, that means that you are a good combination of your own knowledge and experience, along with having learned through instruction - and you are equally as good with theoretical things as you are with real-world, applied things. You have a well-rounded brain.

20% applied intelligence
20% learned intelligence

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

coniekoons @ 2006-01-07T01:19:00

2006-01-06T15:19:41Z

Today seemed rather dramatic, personally and at work. I walk out of the Golden Girl's room, and my boss comes rushing in with harsh words! I see my co-worker with her hands up with such shock on her face. Then all this and that, and this and that in the office. *shakes head* You can't help but join the bandwagon of gossipmongers. Too sinfully juicy! It saddens me that I hear so many things about others... and sometimes I question myself... my role in the office as a worker as well.

I have yet to finish my essay for my application to Sanctuary. And I can't believe school starts on the 18th... ALREADY???? Danggit, I still have my hangover from last sem :( I hope to take a two day break before school starts. I just need time to consume the idea of school again.. and practicum. Frankly, if you ask me, I'm quite nervous.

I've been feeling uncomfortable lately. I don't really know what it is. Subconscious is coming up...and I'm a afraid!

I'm disappointed that things have been cancelled. Tonight is cancelled, and then on Sunday, I just don't want to go without any practice. (Practice was cancelled lastnight).

Got this one from Juju-san.

Your Social Dysfunction:
Normal

Being average in terms of how social you are, as well as the amount of self-esteem you have, you're pretty much normal. Good on you.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Please note that we aren't, nor do we claim to be, psychologists. This quiz is for fun and entertainment only. Try not to freak out about your results.

p.s. look at my emotion icon... it looks happy. Feeling weird shouldn't look happy.. .it should look... uncomfortable. WEIRD!

coniekoons @ 2005-12-27T13:22:00

2005-12-27T03:22:21Z

Work is sooooo slow, I'd rather go home! There's nothing to do! and the boss isn't here to answer questions. boo...

coniekoons @ 2005-12-23T10:16:00

2005-12-23T00:06:12Z

I've been feeling icky lately. Hm... *yawns*

My co-workers and I are having lunch at the Westin :) I wish brought my camera so I can take beautiful pictures. I'm so looking forward to it!

Before I went to church, I went shopping! I only bought three things.

1. Sister - Polo pants she liked
2. Sister-in-law - a lavynder (her fav. color) Polo knitted top
3. Mico (Godchild) - a shirt.

More to go!!!!!!!!!!!

happy thanksgiving!!!!

2005-11-24T05:36:29Z

Dear Lord thank you for:

-love; difficult, compassionate, and gentle love
-having felt and seen poor, which allows me to encounter humility
-struggles, for they bring me closer to you
-my family, OMG, especially my momsy and daddy, they give me a glimpse of your unconditional love
-Rey-san, who shows me who I really am - materialistic, self-absorbed, and not as close to you as I think I am
- my community, for walking with me in this caravan and assuring me that I'm not a lone
- my nephew & neice, for they show me innocence
- friends, for such support
- giving me the opportunity to share your love and care
- There so much more... I just can't name all... hehehe

HAPPY GOBBLE-GOBBLE DAY everyone!!!!! I am so excited!!!!!!

I'm at my sissy's house and things seems to be moving quickly. There's just that feeling of enthusiasm about Thanksgiving in our family this time,which is quite unusual because we didn't grow up celebrating it (another sign of westernization). I think it may be that my sissy's thankful for her wonderful home. And, the babies just totally make the seasons much more livelier. Anyways, dinner's at my sissy's (lyn, if you didn't know that, please inform everyone :P) and we've got a fairly large turkey baking in the oven. I'm excited about that because this is the first year that my immediate family is hosting a thanksgiving, and more so a turkey!

Last Tuesday, I finally got my wisdom teeth pulled. Although not all four, the doc pulled the 2 that are really bothersom. I must share with you guys that it was such an emotional moment for me. I felt so alone, poor, scared, and shaken. Actually, one day I told my boss that I needed to get my wisdom teeth pulled out and that I couldn't afford to pay $1,000 + to pay for it. So he referred me to his friend. He spoke to him and he had his receptionist give me an appointment. I came in on Tuesday, and everything went fast. He checked me and then gave me the bill... still it was $500 +. I had only $50! Even if I decided to pull my teeth some other day, I didn't think I would have enough money to pay for the initial consultation. Well, the doc asked if I wanted to pull it in like 10 minutes. I was so shocked, and not ready for it, and what about that money??????????????? So I asked if I can call my mom and ask her if she can loan me my dad's money. So Idid, and when i called her... I just cried... cried... and cried! It wasn't the normal crying folks, it was one of those sobbing controlled types. The nurses were talking to me, but all I could focus on was trying to control my sobbings. I felt upset, poor, lost... I mean, I was upset at my parents for not having provided insurance, and upset at my boss and the receptionist for not clearing things up for me. I felt poor because I just didn't have money! and lost because... should I pull it now, or should I pull it later? how am I going to pay for my bill? UGH! Anyhow, the whole time was a blurr after. I remember just lying and seeing the light. I was still crying the whole time (esh.. right?)! THen I heard the nurse get things ready. and shortly, the doc came. He went over what was the procedures and told me hwo things were going to feel. And finally, he said, open your mouth. I'm still crying as I open my mouth, and this SNORT came out of me. not just a snort folks, but a SNOOOORT!!!! bwahahaha... the doc yells out... "WOPS! WE've GOT A SNORTER!" LOL... and I couldn't help but laugh!!!! and things felt a little better :) When things were done, I still felt scared and lost, and my body still shaken (I literally felt my muscles shake as I laid on the bed thingy). The nurse gave me the bill, and it turned out they gave me free consultation, and the doc pulled the other one for free :) DO YOU KNOW HOW THANKFUL I AM??? GOsh.. I even wanted to cry more. And then, I felt upset because... what if they just felt sorry for me? it's just a ball of mixed emotions.... Finally, I came home... and to see my mom made me feel better (I'm about to tear now..ew?) and she paid for the balance. I told my daddy that I'll pay him back... and I hope I do, and Ihope he lets me because he usually doesn't.

So, that was my wisdom tooth story. I hope I made sense... haha.. too lazy to go back and make corrections. Anyways, I'm going back to Dr. Yasuhiro (and he's good and funny by the way) on Tuesday.

I'm happy that my professor for Aging class gave us an extension on our paper. Instead of the 28th, he's allowing us to turn it in on Dec. 7th! I'm stoked about that.

Yesterday, the office had our Thanksgiving party. It was so fun. We actually had Karaoke... and to see your boss dance and sing? That's a trip and a bunch of fun too!!!!!!

*sighs* I can smell the turkey, and I can hear my family... I think I'm going to join them. Thank you guys for taking the time out to read my blogs. It's been a year now :)

A happy thanksgiving greetings to you all and warm huggies :)

coniekoons @ 2005-11-16T22:23:00

2005-11-16T12:58:17Z

Forgive me, blogging helps me deal with stress...

My room is filled with the scent of French Vanilla *inhales deeply*.. I love my room's ambiance.

Next semester will be, hopefully, much easier. I am planning to only take 3 class:

SW-302 General Social Work Methods II
SW-385 Field Instruction
PY-202 Adolescent Psychology

Next sem, I finally get to intern. I have been thinking about where to intern, and I've thought of Sanctuary & Day Care. I'm leaning towards Children now, it's quite interesting. I'm also looking foward to Adolescent Psychology. I think that would coincide greatly if I chose to intern at Sanctuary. Which reminds me, I have to read our thick-ass packets. BOO!

Today had been really busy at work. Since we're having a symposium on the 2,3,4th of December, there are many things that need to be done. My main job today was to do thousands of quotes for surrongs, shell lei's, beach mats, shredder, paper, cartridges and toners, UPS, Christmas calenders that need to be sent out to our participants, etc. BTW, thanks april for helping me. Your customer service skills are an A+++!

Since my professor for Aging let us out early, I made a decision to hit the library to read my book. I totally loved it! Since it was an hour until closing time, there were hardly any people. It was during the evening, the sunlight did not distract me from my reading; the lighting was perfect! I read, and read, and read... it felt so good to finally have reached that occassional moment where my thoughts are engrossed on the words...a picture visioned and conversations are heard. I should make those occassional moments, often.

This is just a random thought. During our first valetine together, Rey-san had bought me this heart necklace, surrounded with wanna-be-diamonds. I've wore it a couple of time since, but rarely. I walked into Lyn's Jewelry and I saw the necklace just like mine. I don't know if you guys ever do this, but out of curiosity, I asked the sales lady to see how much it cost. With 50% off, it was $400 +. I thought, there no way he would buy me that after having known me only for a couple of months. I even asked if they sold fake diamonds that shaped like my heart necklace. Finally, I asked him how much he bought it. And holy cow.. I was like... smack! Those wanna-be-diamonds, are real diamonds! I was like... honey, you could have bought me a tiffany bracelet or necklace! hahaha.... don't get me wrong, after having known that, I am even more grateful! Besides that, his his care for me is much more than diamonds... and yes, shoes! :P

*sighs* on that note, I really want to get him something special for Christmas. I want to get him a new flip phone. I have this coupon that gives 50% off, but it has to be a prepaid or a plan. He's already in a plan. We'll see... We were shopping for a phone the other week, and I have an idea of what type he wants.

I don't know if you all have been keeping up with PDN, but they've been bringing up scandal. hahaha... This past month(s), sex offenders who work for GovGuam are on the news pages. They've already been online, but to publish it? wah! Then, today, they have beaters. At least it brings an awareness, right? At the same time, it's not fair. Yes, these people have offended, hurt, etc., but they have their own history... and in a psychoanalytical point, they have underlying issues that they have problems dealing with, but don't know how. I hope they get help though...

I was invited to the Nationa Family Caregiver Support Program (NFCSP) Annual retreat for caregivers. They're going to have footspa, facials, massage.. and eat at the Hilton. I'm a bit iffy about it because I've got a shit load, but we'll see. If not, I really want to get myself a pedicure.

Today was India day at UoG's rutunda. My supervisor and I had a blast sorting through their bangles. My co-worker bought me one, and I am so digging it. Its clang can be quite annoying, but other than that... it makes me smile :)

Tonight, had a decent dinner with Rey-san. We were supposed to watch a play, but I thought I'd just watch it some other time.

Ai eedai... I think I've winded down. time to get back to work... leaving you with the bangles my co-worker scored me...

coniekoons @ 2005-11-13T11:52:00

2005-11-13T02:23:08Z

I sometimes wish I were off island for school. It's just too difficult to concentrate. I try to do work, as it is almost the end of the semester, and someone comes knocking at my door to do something. Either I have to drop my brother to work (his truck is broke) or take my mom or sister in law somewhere. Then it takes me about thirty minutes to quiet my business and continue with school stuff. An hour later, I have to be somewhere! It's chaotic. Gesh, then people complain about my irritability. Leave me alone, just for this moment... please!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Love is the Measure: A Biography of Dorothy Day, by Jim Forest. It's the latest book I'm reading and the the book I've been waiting for from amazon! I'm so disappointed in them b/c it took them a month! I should have ordered from Barnes & Nobles next time. I have about a week to finish this book for my class, which I'm very nervous about because I know my capabilities in reading, slow, and I have other projects and papers to do.

This morning, I woke missing Rey-san. I know we live in the same island, but we just don't hang out as often because he's been having weddings left to right, and I, trying to get school going. We have to prioritize, and a little sacrifice won't hurt. In fact, when we're together it's greatly appreciated. and just to hear his voice makes me go... "aaaaahhh..." I don't know with this man... I am sooooooooo grateful.

I read yesterday's paper. Two things that are scary brought up on the front page of PDN: Cholera outbreak and the rapist who escaped from prison has not been found yet. Last thursday, UoG got warning that he might be in the area b/c he has relatives around there. I was really nervous because I had a group meeting and finish like at 9:30. freekay!

OMG, on the 17th, it's JURY!!!!!!! Not Jury Duty, but Jury.. it's like recital but you sing in front of professors and see how you've improved. It's like an exam almost. If you pass, you go on to recitals. I always do bad, but lets see... I want to give it my all. I know I can do it, it's just nervousness gets in the way. I'm learning how to control it while I sing. ack!

Took my sister-in-law to GPO yesterday and I found these really cute shoes. I'm picking it up today! yes!

coniekoons @ 2005-11-11T22:21:00

2005-11-11T12:37:23Z

If I were to pickany magazine off the newstand,it would definitely be GLAMOUR. I know I shouldn't be reading magazines, however I just love this one. It's not just about fashion and beauty, but mostly about empowering women! There are so much stories about women who are just like me who have made a difference in America, and if not, the world! I see the whole beauty and fashion a bonus. I enjoy its fashion sense, which helps me to coordinate my clothes, and at the same time empower my womanhood :) Infact, I'm subscribing to it because they have a special. 2 yrs for just 20 buckeroos! I'm happy about that.

I'm supposed to be meeting with my groupmates at 10 on msn messenger, but no one seems to be popping up. I hope I didn't offend anyone by rearranging the synopses part of the paper. Oh wells... whatever works with them.

Today I had to walk around the mall wearing my sunglasses. I woke up with a terrible headache and everything I saw was so magnified. It hurt to walk outside my house! I must have looked ridiculous, but I had to get out of my house because I was beginning to feel cabin fever coming.

coniekoons @ 2005-11-06T15:31:00

2005-11-06T05:51:18Z

"When you don't want to feel, death can seem like a dream. But seeing death - really seeing it - makes dreaming about it fucking ridiculous." Wynona Ryder, Girl Interrupted

I really thought that line was really power. I had to share it all with you guys :)

I've been watching movies in attempt to look for a prospect to do a character analysis for my Abnormal Psych class. It was quite overwhelming, to tell you frankly. Not in the sense where I couldn't take the profanity or the psychotic-ness of some characters, but how people's behavior are "interrupted" due somesort of coruption/abuse. It's much intricate, but I find it quite fascinating, yet overwhelmingly scary.

The brighter side...

Took my mom to Sharon Cuneta's concert. She sounded better live, however, in the middle of the show, Rey-san and I were getting sleepy. Then I had another fugue, it was me singing in front of thousands as I did this mavelous comedic number. Oh how I dream...........

I'm happy to say that we now have a guitarist for 8 a.m. mass. My heart is overwhelmed with gratefulness! It's like, we're getting hooked up in the church's system. John's dad's awesome. He's willing to pay for wirings so we can get hooked up! Although its not needed, I'm so happy he's so supportive :) I hope more people will come on Friday practices.

It's about the last month of the semester, and things are getting crazy. There's so much to do, and obligations to fulfill. I just have to remind myself to take it a step at a time and that... prioritization is important at the moment.

*sighs*

Welps, I haven't spoken to Rey-san in a while, I better check on what he's doing on his day-off.

thanks for reading folks... :)

coniekoons @ 2005-10-23T15:17:00

2005-10-23T06:00:24Z

I've been feeling really sick :( I believe this is a manifestation of my stress. I long for the days where I can just relax and do homework.

I think I may need to visit the doc's tomorrow. My throat really feels engorged. I may be fighting an infection because my lymph nodes are the ones that are swollen. It hurts :(

I finally bought me a new pair of Nike's for the gym, and I also got me these jesus type zories in gold. my other ones were left outside and green mold grew on it. ew!! I had to throw them away. so I opt of buying me new ones and the ones I got... they're really comfortable.

There is so much tension within the social work class, juniors and seniors. during the retreat, issues have been brought about... and people are totally freaking out.I have retreats on a monthly basis, that I expect things like these to comeout during a retreat.

anyhow, I think I better do more readings so to catch up a bit.

thanks for reading all...

coniekoons @ 2005-10-22T10:47:00

2005-10-22T00:55:58Z

Busy, busy, busy! do I ever have time do catch up on my readings..

I am now the leader of my group, which means more resposibilities. I enjoy it in a great sense because I suddenly feel more mature. weird, but true.

I have to buy me new running shoes today because my former one has its mouth ready to eat anything in its way. I'm excited about it though... the thought of choosing new shoes :) looser I am!

Watched the one-person-play "Haunted by God: the Life of Dorothy Day". I am totally inspired. And I still continue on praying that being a social worker somehow will be an instrument to what my purpose in this life is. I also was ecstatic that my professor gave me and my classmate free tickets. It save me twenty buckaroos yo! hehehe... Rey-san had to pay for his ticket though. He seriously didn't mind.

I wasn't really impressed with the social work retreat. It seemed more like a conference than a retreat. No "looking deeply into the self" kind of thing. Can you believe it... we talked about policy in a retreat. since when???? ugh!

I had some slacks cut off of me. I was supposed to do data entry for church, however my so called partner already did it. I am so thankful. really... I am. It'll give me time to fix my room and just breathe... you know what I mean?

anyhow, more stories later. I have got to wash thee clothes.

shalom....